hey, my name is atreya. i have a boyfriend, his name is george. and that's my baby, his name is weston. im intending on hiding nothing from my followers (hoping i'll get followers). so time to plunge into the story that is my life :)
i was born on august sixth of nineteen ninety-four. so that would make me sixteen at this moment.
i live in las vegas nevada. no, its not cool. it sucks. and no, i dont go to the strip on a daily basis.
i live with my mom and her fiance. dont particularly like it.
i go to las veags academy for performing arts. im a band major. i play flute. i love it.
george and i have been together for a little over a year. through good times and bad, (and trust me, there have been BAD times), he's been here for me and i love him to death.
and yes, he's the baby daddy.
in eighth grade, i had my first real boyfriend, jake. he opened my eyes to a world i never wanted to see.
i lost my virginity to him at thirteen, the summer before ninth grade. we werent even together.
i regret it to this very day.
february of freshman year, i had my second real boyfriend. nick. we were so perfect for so long. im such an idiot.
see, i decided that i had this little crush on a boy named brandon.
turns out, following a crush you had for a week is the dumbest thing you can do when you've been with someone for nine months. it kinda ruins it.
long story short, i realized i made the biggest mistake of my life.
he begged for weeks to try and get me back. when he finally stopped, and told me he found someone else, i broke down. tried as hard as i could to get him back. he wouldnt take me.
i deserved it.
in february of the next year, after spending months depressed, i was hospitalized in montevista behavioral hospital for self-abuse and suicide attempt.
STUPID.
i swear i could never do anything more idiotic than get hospitalized because of a boy.
i was legitimately depressed though. it runs in the family and it wasnt even really because of him anymore.
after that i did well. had a few miscellaneous boyfriends, until i met george.
we met at the end of april my sophomore year. he asked me to be his girlfriend a couple weeks later, on
may fourth twenty-ten<3
so here's the biggest event of my life. and i have no doubt it will always be the biggest event.
i got pregnant.
oops.
george had just graduated and was going to UNR (reno) for college in august. (it was the end of july when we found out)
i had just finished my sophomore year of high school. we were
FUCKED.
so we both decided we couldnt keep the baby. it wasnt fair to him or us. we had futures. so did he.
we decided on adoption.
to make in INCREDIBLY long story short,
he went to a family that lives in utah. he was born
march twelfth, two thousand-eleven. eleven forty-one a.m.<3
six pounds, three ounces. twelve inches long. perfectly healthy baby boy with a full head of black hair.
THIRTEEN HOURS OF LABOR! and you best bet i had an epidural!
adoption is by far the hardest thing i've ever done, and ever will do. no doubt about that.
and honestly, if i could take it back, i would. i'd never do that again. i could care less if i got pregnant tomorrow. i'd keep it.
but now, im graduating a whole year early from high school and going to college next year!
northern arizona university in flagstaff arizona.
CANT WAIT!
remember how i said i went to a performing arts high school? well im going to college to major in music education. first choice? no. i wanted to do performance. but a performance degree is THE most pointess degree in the entire world. at least i'll have a job when i graduate with an ed. degree.
NAU, however, is my first choice.
my band director, mr biles, who i happen to be oddly close to, is killing me right now.
first of all, he hates that im graduating. second, he is worried about me paying for school. im getting no help from my mom or family at all. so im doing everthing on student loans. hoo-ray! :/
fml.
so he hates that im going to nau. he wants me to go to unlv. so i applied for reno, because at least i would get in state tuition there. but he wasnt happy with that either. reno's music program
SUCKS ASS.
i've been so stressed about this, because his opinion matters to me, and i dont wanna disappoint him, so i go back and forth every day about what to do. i finally decided that i just dont care what anyone else says, im gunna go where i have always wanted to go. i know im screwing myself over with money, but thats okay. everything will work out. besides, what's life without taking risks?
so i told him that, now he's not talking to me. which honestly makes me really depressed. i love mr biles and disappointing him like that tears me apart. i know he's just looking out for me, and i appreciate it, but i wanna go there. i wanna make the most out of my college life seeing as how my high school life sucked.
i hope you guys follow my page, it would mean a lot. i would love to tell people about my life. if you follow me, i'll follow you :) im hoping to be posting daily, so everyone will always be updated. thanks for taking the time to read guys! <3
